____tear my heart open; i sew myself shut

Saturday, April 02, 2005

let's say today was a rather eventful day! (:
had national juniors! yupps! -nods
and i think we trashed everyone la! so cool!
muahahahahas~
we pratically dominated every event.
anyway went there for warm up and guess what...
it just happen TO RAIN! SHEESH -pouts
how FUN. warm up in the rain.
got drenched by the time we did drills.
wow. i so loved that. -rolls eyes

gail rocked her event LA! (:
so proud to call her my junior!
but, I HATE her too!
pouts pouts pouts pouts pouts!
she got the freaking championship record
with a 10.40+ and guess what.
she fouled her last jump.
which was a FREAKING 10.95!
WHAT IN THE WORLD WERE YOU THINKING GIRL?!
man man man. and the reason i hate her?
i haven't even reached 10m.
-ashamed.
stefan got a record too! (:
so happy for him.
oh oh i think the judges were BIASED!
han wei was like the only sole competitor for stefan.
and guess what. he should be placed 2nd
BUT, he fouled all his jumps. why?
because he didn't tay on the spot.
stupid.
SO SAD LA! ):
BIASED JUDGES! -HMPFF
oh i collected gail's medal on her behalf!
x) so cool. MUAHHA! i got the medal!
IM NOT GIVING IT BACK! NONO~
just kidding! (:

oh well. tomorrow is MY TURN! ahhh~
i'm gonna get a nervous breakdown or something!
ughs~
i hope my ankle holds.
i'm gonna push my luck.

gonna pray hard.
and i don't think its gonna work very well?
am i asking too much?
did all this happen because,
i negleted God?
i think so.
i've negleted him for so long.
he's so near yet so far.
guess its back to devotion again.
well gonna repent at church tmr.
forgive me my Lord. (:

{ tear my heart open }
9:35 pm